It’s been about a week since my last post. I think it’s about time I catch you up on what’s going on in my head and my life.

  1. I’ve officially been a working full time mom for a month. Let me tell you, the shit is hard. For the single parents who have been doing this for years, you guys are troopers. Fighters. I had one day, where I just wanted to wrap myself around my son because he keeps telling me how much he misses me. I miss him too. I have been struggling when it comes to balancing my time. Bath schedules are off, we are eating a lot of fast foods and TV dinners, I am constantly tired, my house isn’t as neat as it used to be… and I just wonder when it will get easier. Lets not forget, I have to make time for myself and be a mom to my child, as he needs and deserves my time as well. There’s not enough hours in a day. Not enough days in a week… sometimes I think I am failing as a mother. And some days, I’m like, “Yeah, I can do this.” Its a roller coaster, but hopefully all of this will pay off.
  2. I got into a little disagreement/argument with my mother. Tomorrow it will be a week since we’ve talked. And I truly don’t know how to feel about it. It’s like I miss her presence, but not her words or judgement. Sometimes I want to be around her, sometimes I don’t. We’re different people. I am more open minded and she is more…. close minded I guess. Stuck in her ways. Our relationship will become more apparent as we talk… we’re just getting to know each other… Let’s take it slow. 🙂
  3. My best friend and I actually had a disagreement. That doesn’t happen very often, and not to the effect that I get a long paragraph of her expressing her feelings. I have this habit of getting in my feelings and saying/doing things that I deem to be funny in a way, but also kind of a clap back or a way to get my point across when I think I am not being heard or taken seriously… she called it passive aggressiveness. Listen… I never thought that I was that way. But at the same time, she is right. It doesn’t happen very often, but I admit that I am like that…. and I apologized for it as soon as she called me out on it. I never want to truly offend her. She’s one of the few people I have on my team, and I hope that never changes.
  4. I worked some MANDATORY OVERTIME. Let me tell you, as a single parent… it pissed me off. But I did it.

I will more than likely have more posts about these things, sort of like an in depth post, but I just wanted to give you a little something.

I am working on being here more. I appreciate you guys for sticking around for me.

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